My Modern Medicine Experience
Updated: Jul 31, 2020
While I have spent a lot of my time talking about holistic remedies and celebrating my success with overcoming insomnia medication-free, I still wholeheartedly believe that there is a place for modern medicine. It is often crucial for one’s survival and can be a very powerful method for treating disease.
I was feeling a little nostalgic and wanted to share a post I wrote right before starting my medication-free health journey. I hope that this provides some comfort to you if you are feeling pressure in any way about being on medications or have any shame about your health struggles.
February 10, 2020
The first time I saw a doctor for insomnia I was six months postpartum. I had gone through six months of poor sleep, panic attacks and scattered emotions. The doctor had me fill out a mental health survey that asked questions such as “In the past two weeks how often has your mental health interfered with your relationships?” and “how often has it impacted your ability to get work done?” I found myself answering with the words “extremely often” and “every day.”
“It appears you are experiencing some depression and anxiety,” the doctor said as she wrote a prescription for Buspirone (anti-anxiety) and Celexa (anti-depressant). I cried the whole way home and it took me two weeks and plenty of encouragement by family to fill the prescriptions. I was in denial that I was struggling with mental health. I reluctantly stayed on the meds for about a year. I was sleeping most nights, sometimes having to take two or three of the Buspirone.
While I was finally sleeping better, the side effects were becoming unbearable. I felt very sluggish and numb. Therefore, I slowly weaned off the meds, incorporated some natural sleep remedies and was doing fairly well until about a month later. Then, BOOM insomnia and anxiety hit like a ton of bricks out of nowhere. Eight days of little to no sleep while trying to work and raise a two year old. Again, I found myself in the doctor’s office begging for help. I had them do every blood test in the book, as I was determined that I would find an answer; I did not. My blood tests came back normal and meanwhile more Celexa was prescribed and this time Trazadone for sleep.
I say all of this not as a rant against meds, but, more so to tell you that I have come to realize that medications were designed by people much smarter than me for a reason: THEY WORK and are sometimes very necessary. My hope is that this round of meds is a temporary solution for me. I am viewing this as a reset in my sleep so that I can also start incorporating other methods for good sleep and wellness and eventually wean off feeling more prepared for overcoming insomnia.
My goal through my platform is to provide resources that help you make decisions about your own health desires. Whether your goal is to supplement your health woes through natural remedies in addition to modern medicine, to wean off medications entirely, or purely to live a more holistic lifestyle, I am here to help you reach those goals whatever they may be. I document my journey to provide hope and show you what has worked for me but, certainly do not expect your journey to be the same as mine. I simply want to ride along with you as you heal in your own way.